Jordan Update

I got word on Jordan yesterday. He is delayed in both speech and social emotional skills and even needs some Occupational Therapy(which will help devolope his fine motor skills, like pincher grasp and using both hands to do things). So we are currently being referred to another agency that can provide more for him. It is the same agency that John has services through so that is helpful. And we hope that with these services that he will recieve he will catch up to where he needs to be and it is still a little early to tell if he is autistic or just behind in some skills, but I am still worried and we could use all of the prayers out there to get us through this time in our lives. We have traveled this road before but I don't think it makes it any easier the 2nd time around and we just want our boys to be cared for and get everything they need to have a great and fulfilled life. I will keep you all updated as we hear more. And we love and miss you all.

Newest family member

Our family grew just a bit bigger today. One of the ladies I know here on my autism yahoo group was giving away puppies. So we decided to get the boys one. I know what you are thinking, What! a puppy with three boys you decided to get a puppy? Yes we did. And the boys are loving it. We picked him up this morning and the pictures are the boy's first introduction to him. We named him Mr. Echo. John picked echo and we added the Mr. because of the best show ever LOST and Mr. Echo is one of the men that was on there. So we are looking forward to the adventers that we are going to have with Mr. Echo and they have already started. John is a little nervous around him but likes having him a round and James is also nervous but likes to watch him. And Jordan well that boy thinks it is the best day of his life. He is LOVING the dog he follows him around every where and visa versa. I think the day's around here are going to be more crazy and more funny and I didn't think that was even possible.

God is Good

Recently everything in my life has begun to fall apart but I have been digging deep into the word and seeing God's grace and mercy has made one thing clear to me. He is good, even when life is falling apart all around me and I feel as if I'm are going to drown in it, and there is no way out. God is still there, still holding on to me. Still leading me, still loving me, still carrying me no matter what. That is a promise I really need to grab hold of right now and I love the words of this Point of Grace song because it says what we all need to remember and we always tend to forget it on a daily basis but we need to remember it and hold it very close to our hearts. It is one of his greatest promises to us. Be blessed today and please always remember that no matter how bad this life can get he is still there and still good. I am learning that each day and I hope that you will know that too. Nothing is too big for him to handle. Praise Him for that. When the sun starts to rise and I open my eyes You are good, so good In the heat of the day with each stone that I lay You are good, so good With every breath I take in I'll tell You I'm grateful again When the moon rises high before each kiss goodnight You are good When the road starts to turn around each bend I've learned You are good, so good And when somebody's hand holds me up, helps me stand You are so good With every breath I take in I'll tell You I'm grateful again 'Cause it's more than enough just to know I am loved And you are good So how can I thank You And what can I bring What can a poor man lay at the feet of a king So I'll sing you a love song It's all that I have To tell You I'm grateful For holding my life in Your hands When it's dark and it's cold and I can't feel my soul You are still good When the world has gone gray and the rain's here to stay You are still good With every breath I take in I'll tell you I'm grateful again And the storm may swell even then it is well You are good So how can I thank You And what can I bring What can a poor man lay at the feet of a king So I'll sing you a love song It's all that I have To tell You I'm grateful For holding my life in Your hands

I am amazed at how my boys grow and how fast. It brings joy to me but also makes me even more unsure of what I am doing as a parent and if I am even doing the right thing. Right now as I write I am thinking oh my what have I gotten into being a parent and a parent of three boys at that. But I am also reminded that the Lord choose me to be their mom. I don't know why or even if I can do it, but I am honored that the Lord gave me the best boys in the whole world. Pray for us as a family. Many things are happening in our lives right now and wjust need lots and lots of prayers. And please especially pray for these things: Gabe and I and our marriage, John starting all day kindergarten I am not sure how he is going to do and I don't even know how I am going to do, James and his attitude things are getting worse with him, and Gabe and I are at a lose on how to help him, and Jordan's development. As many of you know this has been a constant concern for me and sadly I think my fears are becoming a reality as far as if we have another autistic son. Jordan is following closely in John's footsteps when he was a baby. We do have an evaluation coming up and we pray before then that things change but if not. That the Lord will equip us to start this journey again with our baby boy and that he will continue to empower us and strengthen us in yet another hard path. And please also pray for a dear family that is close friends of ours, they too are starting down a very hard and troubling path as they just found out that their oldest boy who is only 4 has Cystic Fibrosis. I will update as soon as I can about all of these things, and thanks for reading, and praying.