My John

I am so blessed and amazed to see how far my John has come these last three years, he is singing every veggie tales song that there is and it brings tears to my eyes and joy to my heart to see where he is and where he has come from. I think back to all of those long days and nights when he would just cry and scream and I couldn't figure out what he wanted and wondered if he would ever say any words at all, and longed to hear him call me mommy. He works so hard everyday just to do "normal" things that we all find so easy and I am so proud of him. And then I am amazed to watch him do the things that come so easily to him and are so hard from the rest of us, like memorizing. I love how he tries so many new things, even though they may make him really uncomfortable. He loves to just live life, and is beyond active, so I have to kept up with him but he loves to experience all that he can. Whether it is a museum, putt putt golf, bowling, and even some new foods he goes right after it, and loves it. I love how he doesn't ever hold anything back, when he sings, hugs you, kisses you, talks, everything he does is more than 100%. And he has so many great ambitions right now but the most important one is being a cook. What an amazing little man he is! His teacher recently gave me a list of the top 10 positive things about having a child with Autism and I wanted to share it all with you. 1. My child never lies or deceives. He is truthful and honest. His words are genuine-always. 2. You will have opportunities to meet people that you never would have met if your child hadn't been diagnosed. Amazing friendships and relationships can be formed around a common bond. 3. My child follows the rules and wants to do what is right. He aims to please. 4. My child's heart knows and feels true happiness. 5. My child's hugs are 100% real and such and honor to receive. 6. My child gets to be innocent and enjoy his childhood a little longer than others. 7. My child doesn't understand sarcasm. 8. My child lives in today. Yesterday is gone, tomorrow's not here yet. 9. My child's laugh and smile show his pure heart. He has no facades or hidden agendas. 10. My child teaches me daily to do all of these things again: laugh, play, pretend, listen, be honest and never lie. He teaches me to follow my inner voice and feel with my heart. I am so thankful for my little boy. I know it takes a lot of work to be his mom and most days I fail miserably, but there is nothing in this world more than I would want to be than his mom. I don't know why our Lord does what he does or gives us the children he gives us, but I do know that he knows what he is doing even if we don't. And I am content to rest in my Jesus and allow him to lead me and give me strength to fulfill his work in being a mom.