There are three major things we need to do in our walk, three things that I fail at everyday.
The first being trust, trusting our Lord for who he is, what he has done and what he will do. I have a major trust problem, I always have honestly. I don't trust anyone, not even myself. People are not trustworthy, even the good ones. It's been proven over and over again in my life, that I can't trust. So when it comes to the Lord, my creator, my everything, I can't even trust him. And that's sad, and shouldn't' be that way at all. My Jesus has NEVER let me down, it's not in his blood, he can't forsakes us, nor does he want to. Even in the hardest times of my life, my Lord has proven faithful, I just have a hard time accepting and believing it. Something that I am praying for strength in, something for the Lord to come in and change in my heart. That ugly nastiness anxious part of who I am. To be made new in him, to see his faithfulness and rest in it, with every new challenge,with every new scary thing, every unsure thing that pops into my life. God is faithful no matter what!!!!!
Second, once we know that we can trust Jesus above all things, we can relax a little, and enjoy where he has us, where he's taking us, etc. This is majorly big for me right now. As I am missing the joy of starting our own church, and my boys growing up (2 are going into middle school), because I am so scared to just trust Jesus and know that he has this!! I don't want to miss the joys of where he has me or where he is taking me. It's big stuff, exciting stuff, scary stuff,yes but not with the trust of the Lord rooted deep in my heart. I want to enjoy life and not just let is pass me by because I am consumed with worry, and trying to figure things out myself. I want to relish in the awesome place the Lord has Shawn and I right now. We started a church, us, unbelievable, Shawn doing what he has always been called to do, with people that we love and want to minister to. I am a pastors wife, again crazy, but a place that I want to shine Jesus in so brightly that people are changed. A stretching place for our whole family, but a place, Jesus himself chose us specifically for, how humbling, how grateful, how awesome it is to be right where our Lord placed us. Crazy steps of faith that wouldn't' even be possible if Jesus hadn't orchestrated them and wasn't leading us. Times in our life I don't want to miss, because they are big, they are exciting and our Jesus is going to be proven over and over again in this adventure, we need to just enjoy the ride and see all that God is going to do.
Which leads us right in to our third item, Taking it to the next level, taking those God size steps of faith, going deeper, being stretched, doing and being all that God has for us, without being hung up on stress, worry, and not trusting. Missing so many blessings, because our mind is so focused somewhere else, consumed with things Jesus commands us to hand over to him. But instead saying Yes Jesus, what ever you have for me, I will go, I will do, I will bring glory to your name. Awesome, to be placed in places you never thought possible, to shine Jesus in ways you never could have imagined and to be blessed and see God's faithfulness day in and day out, as all the work is his, and you can't claim anything in yourself. But that's it's all God, because we are nothing but mere vessels in his hands! Like that song oceans, I linked it for you. It blesses me so much, I think it's a perfect song for this time in our life. We are ready to trust, take it in, and take it to the next level with our Lord in this coming year, and every year to come. I pray you will to! I pray you are blessed today and always, and that you get ready for what ever the Lord has for you!!! We are buckled in and ready for the ride!
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